May 3, 2013 — TheToolsman
May 3, 2013 — TheToolsman
4:58am… 2 minutes before my alarm goes off.
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I wonder who came up with the term Zombie.
No, stupid, not Fela.
I really need to google that.
And No, you are not a zombie Olawale Adetula.
Yes, you wake up 1- 2 minutes every freaking day before your alarm goes off but hell no. I am not a Zombie.
That is just…
*Beep* *Beep*
You know, I’ve been going through the exact same morning routine for almost five years now and I think I only just realized it today. Ok, that’s not true, I realize it every morning but you know, every year, for at least a couple of weeks after my birthday I get extra ‘sensitive’ about things. As if it’s not bad enough that I’m almost always thinking about a billion things at the same time, I now have to deal with this sensitive side of me that questions everything I do.
Why do I bother with working out? Aren’t we all going to get old and still end up adding weight? What is the point?
Do I really have to say my prayers? I mean, God understands right?
Why don’t I eat breakfast? Isn’t that supposed to be the most important meal of the day?
What the heck is TNC and why do you have to wake up thinking about what post is going up and how many people are reading and what post is going up the next day?
Why do I have to go to work? Can I just sit at home and do nothing?
Why does it all even matter?
What is the point?
And then I’m sitting at my desk at work, checking emails, trying not to sound mean when I respond to a really stupid email from one of the members of my team.
I have to teach, I have to lead, I have to be a good manager.
WHY? why? WHY?
Why did I just write the second why up there in small letters?
Why am I asking you?
Why am I talking to my diary? To myself?
Am I going crazy?
NO!
Maybe I’m just changing. Turning into a Zombie.
*Sigh*
*Yawn*
It’s late, time to hit the sack again. But you know what?
Tonight, I’m setting my alarm for 4:58am.
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Wale Adetula is an unrepentant media addict who spends his nonexistent free time working as an editor at www.thenakedconvos.com.