May 13, 2013 — Zena
May 13, 2013 — Zena
It is 3:30 am and I cannot sleep. This has been a regular occurrence since I moved. My mind is plagued with so many what if’s and have not’s. I have to wake up in the morning to run, or attempt to run anyway.
It is now 6:30am and I’ve been staring at my running shoes. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to become more active (and I’m sure a million of us have) and seriously the thirst to loose weight has out passed my laziness for the first time in God knows when.
It is now 7.00 am and I reluctantly put them on. I am upset with God this morning. I mean why? Why can’t you just give me what I want? I don’t want to hear that crap about “In HIS own good time”. I want it now. Can’t He see time isn’t on my hands anymore, Haba! Can I get a little help?
I’m turning on Spalding Drive into the park and this older man walks besides me. If I was in New York, I would’ve pepper sprayed his ass quick, but the South makes you friendlier. He says Good Morning and tells me my stamina is improving. I am grateful for this comment, say Thank you, but the gentleman isn’t done talking to me.
30 minutes and a mile later, my stranger isn’t a stranger anymore. His name is Wendell, He is 50 years old and has two Master degrees. One is in International Relations and the other is in Public Policy. His wife recently left him, and he has been out of a job for two years. After being unemployed, he took a job as a lot associate/cashier at the Home Depot.
God and I have a funny relationship. I mean how can I complain after hearing that? Here is a man with qualifications who is working at a job beneath him, as opposed to what he was doing before, with a huge smile on his face, and here I am complaining. I am humbled.
So if you’re in a rut like I was, Pray about everything, worry about nothing, You were not sent here to fail. Draw on your courage. Encourage yourself. Walk with strength. Be patient.
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Zena is an unrepentant Bibliophile in love with music and God. Forced out of retirement by @therustgeek, she is an on-again, off again blogger at zenassprawlings.blogspot.com