June 30, 2013 — Sirius
June 30, 2013 — Sirius
I could feel the dam about to release, any second now.
My heart had started racing, not sure how much longer it would hold back.
Zone out.
Auto pilot mode.
Breakfast for hubby. Check
House shopping. Check
Sort out clothes for the week. “God punish PHCN, they had better allow me iron for the week”
Outfit for church. Check
Play with my darling son. (Lost count on how many times we’ve watched “Wreck it Ralph & The Lorax”)
No need for the Salon this weekend so, I’ll catch up on my TV Shows.
I begin to feel like I am in a movie…rewinding in slow mo.
How did I get here? How on earth did this become my life?
I could hear the music…I begin to smile… “I’m a survivor” how cheeky.
I did survive a lot to be where I am today.
Truth be told; I am grateful for my journey in life so far, even more grateful lately.
Not just for the material things, but for how I have grown over time.
I decided to overhaul my life this year, be happy, lose weight, love everyone around me and love God more than I have ever loved Him in my entire life, work hard, be a better wife and mother, defeat my inner demons, yea, that’s the hard part right there.
“I was here” begins to play.
That song sums up want I want in life…
“I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I’ll leave no regrets, to
Leave something to remember, so they won’t forget
I was here
I lived,
I loved
I was here
I did,
I’ve done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
“I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here”
…And then the first drop hits my cheek, painful and cold at the same time, it can no longer hold itself.
I pause and look up.
It’s a heavy downpour.
I shut my eyes and inhale the dusty, wet smell.
My morning run is definitely over.
Feeling Exhilarated.
7:20am…Let the day begin.
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About: ~Sirius~ is an occasional blogger. A lover of food, fashion, weight loss and now weight training -Washboard abs here I come! I also love shopping, scratch that. I take shopping to another level. Retail therapy, can I get a witness, please!