09 — Kiki
09 — Kiki
Three facts: I’m not a writer, I love photography and it is my Birthday. I have pondered what to put to paper — or more correctly — what to type to screen, but I think it would be a good day for reflection.
Imagine you had to re-live the last 6 years of your life, imagine where you were six years ago. Imagine you’re back there with none of the gains of the previous years; back to square one or rather square 6 years back. Some have called me brave but I would have been foolish not to have done so.
Uncertainty is what drives us to take decisions in life. Some we regret, some feel like pure genius. But is life truly uncertain? I’ve battled depression during these years and they’ve manifested in many forms. I’m no saint — but from these years I have learnt that fear brings depression and depression is borne from uncertainty and uncertainty is simply being unsure of yourself and what you can achieve as an individual. I’m not some motivational speaker. I actually don’t like them much but you see unlike them I’m talking from my perspective, a page in my diary, an epoch in my timeline.
So if you ask if I know where I’m going. My answer is I don’t know but the difference is I know who I am and I’m more equipped. I’ve got better friends, I’m loving a better woman and living a better life. Tomorrow, the 14th, I return to the land I’ve exiled myself from for so many years. I don’t know where I would have been in my other timeline. But I know where I am now and I’m glad I’m here.
I am a better man.
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Kiki | Amateur photographer, lover and a good friend.
Not much of a reader but a great listener.